Day 6 - what is the hardest thing you've ever experienced

I would have to say that the hardest thing I've ever experienced is... chronological.
I suppose I will begin with looking at my motorcycle after it slid under a semi and was in little bitty pieces. moving on, watching my wife in labor and knowing there was nothing I could do about it. then a little bit later, I suffered severe withdrawals from drugs and alcohol.  on down line, watching my wife have seizures and knowing she could die at any minute. that's really hard on me. my daughter had to go into surgery for a ruptured appendix, she was crying and terrified. My wife and I weren't able to go into the OR with her. We were unable to help her and completely powerless s she was wheeled away. being laid off was pretty hard on me. so I guess you can take your pick.